Monthly Archives: October 2016

Today I learned about spoons

I spent the day managing legal processes and contracts. Not my favorite part of my job, but it kind of goes with the territory. When I could officially take no... Read More

All drugs are not created equal

Color me informed. Many of you know that I’ve recently started taking Provigil (modafinil) for my MS-related fatigue. The drug isn’t technically approved for this use. It is technically approved... Read More

Changing my mind about changing my thinking

My shrink, my beloved Cheryl, has been gently trying to help me accomplish the enormous task of changing my thinking. I mean, this isn’t a new idea. She’s been trying... Read More

My so-called perfectly curated Internet life

I’ve always been somewhat of a loner. Sometimes when I say that in front of people, they are aghast. Not you, Bethie! You’re not a loner. But it’s totally true.... Read More

MS might actually HAVE me, after all

Cheryl, my loyal and trusty therapist, announced today in our session that she thinks I’ve officially entered the anger phase of my MS mourning. I laughed out loud. I’ve felt... Read More

Bethydark on a sunny day

I had a rough day today, mentally speaking. Maybe because it was Saturday. And the weather was beautiful. And I had nothing to do and nowhere to be. It kind... Read More

The daily Provigil balancing act

Learning the difference between feeling like I can do things and actually doing them and feeling the after effects is my current situation. Provigil makes me FEEL like I can... Read More

Remembering…me?

I had my second MRI today. It was generally uneventful. I laid inside of that tube with a towel over my eyes listening to the crazy banging and whining and... Read More

Drugs are super cheap at Costco…Forreal

OK. My mind is officially blown. I heard this week that my insurance appeal was denied. My doctor is trying a second level appeal but they aren’t hopeful. I find... Read More

Eff you, Charlotte Airport

Charlotte airport gets strike TWO. I waited for 25 minutes for my wheels, until I gave up and walked. I got as far as the “assistance hub” where I saw... Read More