I’ve been dying to write. Ideas have been popping into my head left and right, topics for discussion, news related to my MS, my life…life in general!
Here’s the thing. I went back to work this week. I’ve been off work since mid-December because I stacked a bunch of unused vacation days to use at the end of the year. I had a nice long break. I needed a nice long break, so it was most welcome this time. I’ve done this before but I usually don’t enjoy it as much. I used to start missing the hustle and bustle of daily life. I start missing the office. I guess I did that this time, too, but looking back on the week, I’m starting to realize some things.
I needed a break from work but I was surprised by how much I needed it. Once it was underway, I realized how much space work takes up not only in my brain but in my body and my soul. It takes a lot of effort to keep things moving like everything is “normal.” All of that pretending takes a lot of concentration and focus.
I was in my bed every single night this week by or before 8PM. I even worked from home one day. I got a ton of things accomplished last week at work, I really did. I enjoyed it. I was excited by it.
I was also completely depleted by it.
So even though I have many things in my mind and on my mind that I want to write about both here and in my journal, I haven’t had the energy to do it. Playing the game called daily life has taken precedence.
I guess that will happen. Bloggin’ ain’t easy.