I feel the need to note that lucky number seven is not a real thing. I’m still sleeping most of the time or feeling like the walking dead. Well. Feeling... Read More

Infusion day starts super early. And usually ends up with me in bed all day. Today is no different! I’m just rousing myself for food. To check in with the... Read More

I’ve had this issue almost my whole life. I question what’s real. I see a situation with my own two eyes. I may actually live that situation. In real time.... Read More

I have tears in my eyes today. I’m frustrated. Maybe a little bit angry. I find myself having these fantastic fantasies about what my life should be like. Like imagining... Read More

I’ve been rather quiet lately. I’ve got lots to say, but lots more to ruminate on so I suppose I’ve been ruminating more than usual and saying less. I’ve had... Read More

It’s the day before we go home from Cancun and as is usually the case, I’m ready to tap my heels three times and magically be in my own home... Read More

I’m laying here trying to remember the last time I showered. It might have been Friday. Last Friday. Almost five days ago. I’m not sure why this bothers me. I’ve... Read More

So it’s been pretty obvious that I’ve been pretty openly struggling lately. Obsessing about the 21 days I’m supposed to get to feel good after my infusion. And wondering when... Read More

Legs were still crap today. I hung at the pool with Lani and tried to do some exercising. I came home and did laundry. I’m doing what I need to... Read More

I’m officially on vacation. I hate this feeling of limitation. I resist it. Then I embrace it. Then I resist it again. I’m on a yo-yo ride between thinking I... Read More