There’s something about being left

I’m learning more and more about how the realities of my disabled life affect my psyche and leave me feeling traumatized. For many reasons, I am often left alone unplanned... Read More

Learning to be cared for

When I look back on my life of nearly 60 years, I am struck by how much of that life has been focused on the care of others around me.... Read More

I’ve Avoided these Pages

When a writer stops writing the reasons are usually pretty expected. Your mind suddenly goes blank and all of the topics that you had in the back of your head... Read More

Truly banal worries haunt me

Back in the heyday of my career pre-medical retirement, I made an amazingly good living for myself. Years of hard work in the cut-throat world of advertising landed me in... Read More

Caregivers deserve some more detailed exploration here

I’ve written here before about my use of caregivers to do the most basic tasks required in my life. The minute I wake up in the morning till the time... Read More

Rediscovering Beth

Once again, words from a therapist got my wheels turning toward my keyboard. In conversation with Dr. KB my psychotherapist I was forced to face the reality of the battle... Read More

My psychiatrist had some deep thoughts today

I have monthly appointments with a psychiatrist where I mainly discuss my experience with sleep medications that he prescribes for me. You see, I struggle with serial insomnia hence the... Read More

It’s been a minute

I’ve been missing from these pages and it feels like losing a limb. Words are usually more reliable for me. They don’t normally let me down. I don’t like it.... Read More

Let’s talk about sleep

It’s been a minute since I’ve had the inclination to write anything. That probably has a lot to do with the fact that I haven’t really slept in several days... Read More

Caregiver challenges are killing me

As a fiercely independent person it kills me that I have to rely on caregivers for my most basic needs but it’s a reality I’ve had to learn to accept.... Read More