The hospital is no place for getting well, now is it?

And you find yourself in the hospital for something that you caused 100% of yourself you feel a little bit foolish. Especially in ICU. It’s not a terribly comfortable place.... Read More

Benzo withdrawal is no joke

I was prescribed Klonipin back in 2015 after first being diagnosed with MS. This was even before most of my symptoms got angry and went bezerk. I hadn’t even been... Read More

Let’s talk about sleep

I’ve been having trouble sleeping. It’s as simple as that. Sleep was never a problem for me before. I would just lay my head down and go to sleep mostly... Read More

Learning to live with discomfort

In my dreams I can walk. I’m going to tell you a story about a dream I had recently wherein I could walk.  I have these dreams often. They’re often... Read More

Remember who you are, Bethy

When I first became disabled, I was often caught in a state of total identity confusion. All of the sudden all of the things that I thought made me me... Read More

Discovery amongst the darkness

I’ve been deep in it y’all. In my feelings. In the dark. In the angsty weeds. I’ve already had the mid-life crisis we’re all told to expect but this has... Read More

I wrote this in May 2021

I wrote this in my journal in 2021 and I read it again tonight and it made me think how relevant it still is so I’m going to copy and... Read More

Let’s talk about pee, baby

All homage due to Salt ‘n Pepa, talking about pee probably isn’t as fun or interesting to most folks as talking about sex, but hey. I never claimed to write... Read More

Harsh realities… Life brings it

I continue to try to focus on gratefulness. I continue to try to force myself to focus on the long-term game. Not this week. Not this month. Hell, not even... Read More

Mindless late-night ramblings

I have a feeling I’m going to regret this…but here is a new “post” of sorts. Though I’m not sure qualifies as a post at all.... Read More