I have always loved the holidays. I know. It’s lame. I have a family that I mostly like. (I used to say “I have a perfect family” but I’m thinking... Read More

I think I wrote on this very blog not that very long ago about my need to change my thinking. I was having one of those rare quasi-positive days when... Read More

I love being alone. This seems very odd to many people, but I’ve established a sense of comfort in the solitude that I’ve been given. I treasure it. I hardly... Read More

Cheryl agreed with me yesterday. This is worse than when Chuck died. It seems almost ludicrous to say that but this is actually, really a lot worse. I could pretend... Read More

I’m sure it’s not much of a surprise to anyone that I find myself in the grips of full on FOMO quite regularly. I’m in a constant state of evaluation... Read More

I had kind of an epiphany since my last infusion. Something clicked in my brain around the time I heard the second medical professional say to me, “That’s just your... Read More

I find myself in shades of grey more often than not, these days. When I decided to call my blog bethybrightanddark.com a few friends told me it sounded more like... Read More

It didn’t seem like much to ask. I mean, I did it last year and I somehow survived. My sister asked, incredulously, “You’re gonna use your spoons for THAT?” And... Read More

My shrink, my beloved Cheryl, has been gently trying to help me accomplish the enormous task of changing my thinking. I mean, this isn’t a new idea. She’s been trying... Read More

I’ve always been somewhat of a loner. Sometimes when I say that in front of people, they are aghast. Not you, Bethie! You’re not a loner. But it’s totally true.... Read More