I had a rough day today, mentally speaking. Maybe because it was Saturday. And the weather was beautiful. And I had nothing to do and nowhere to be. It kind... Read More

Learning the difference between feeling like I can do things and actually doing them and feeling the after effects is my current situation. Provigil makes me FEEL like I can... Read More

Charlotte airport gets strike TWO. I waited for 25 minutes for my wheels, until I gave up and walked. I got as far as the “assistance hub” where I saw... Read More

It’s the night before my next trip, the one that is rudely interrupting my weekend and taking me back to Charlotte. It will be my first trip on my new... Read More

My life has become a chemistry experiment. I mean, on one hand, I guess that’s better than my life being a never ending loop of sleeping, working, trying to watch... Read More

I took my first dose of Provigil today. I’m not sure I loved it. I felt kind of tingly and buzzy all day. Of course, I sort of forgot to... Read More

It’s been a really shitty couple of days with these legs. They just don’t want to work. They’re so heavy. And shaky. All at the same time. I’m trying to... Read More

I’ve had this issue almost my whole life. I question what’s real. I see a situation with my own two eyes. I may actually live that situation. In real time.... Read More

I have tears in my eyes today. I’m frustrated. Maybe a little bit angry. I find myself having these fantastic fantasies about what my life should be like. Like imagining... Read More

It’s the day before we go home from Cancun and as is usually the case, I’m ready to tap my heels three times and magically be in my own home... Read More