I’ve been missing from these pages and it feels like losing a limb. Words are usually more reliable for me. They don’t normally let me down. I don’t like it.... Read More

It’s been a minute since I’ve had the inclination to write anything. That probably has a lot to do with the fact that I haven’t really slept in several days... Read More

As a fiercely independent person it kills me that I have to rely on caregivers for my most basic needs but it’s a reality I’ve had to learn to accept.... Read More

I can’t really adequately express how much this pain is disrupting my life. It’s so intense. I’m quite certain nobody prepared me for this level of discomfort when I first... Read More

Trying to bring Bethy Bright and Dark the memoir to life is rough, readers. I’m committed, sure I am, but sitting at my computer querying agents all day is taking... Read More

And you find yourself in the hospital for something that you caused 100% of yourself you feel a little bit foolish. Especially in ICU. It’s not a terribly comfortable place.... Read More

I wrote this in my journal in 2021 and I read it again tonight and it made me think how relevant it still is so I’m going to copy and... Read More

I continue to try to focus on gratefulness. I continue to try to force myself to focus on the long-term game. Not this week. Not this month. Hell, not even... Read More

I am squirming inside of this human flesh suit that is so broken. I am stuck inside of my head where I cannot stop obsessing about these strange symptoms and... Read More

Wow. It’s been a long time. I don’t think I’ve ever not written words for this blog or even just for myself for this long before. I wish I could... Read More