My shrink, my beloved Cheryl, has been gently trying to help me accomplish the enormous task of changing my thinking. I mean, this isn’t a new idea. She’s been trying... Read More

I’ve always been somewhat of a loner. Sometimes when I say that in front of people, they are aghast. Not you, Bethie! You’re not a loner. But it’s totally true.... Read More

Cheryl, my loyal and trusty therapist, announced today in our session that she thinks I’ve officially entered the anger phase of my MS mourning. I laughed out loud. I’ve felt... Read More

I had a rough day today, mentally speaking. Maybe because it was Saturday. And the weather was beautiful. And I had nothing to do and nowhere to be. It kind... Read More

Learning the difference between feeling like I can do things and actually doing them and feeling the after effects is my current situation. Provigil makes me FEEL like I can... Read More

Charlotte airport gets strike TWO. I waited for 25 minutes for my wheels, until I gave up and walked. I got as far as the “assistance hub” where I saw... Read More

My life has become a chemistry experiment. I mean, on one hand, I guess that’s better than my life being a never ending loop of sleeping, working, trying to watch... Read More

I took my first dose of Provigil today. I’m not sure I loved it. I felt kind of tingly and buzzy all day. Of course, I sort of forgot to... Read More

Well, the much awaited meeting with The Great Scott (this is my pet name for my neurologist, Dr. Scott) was slightly more helpful than I expected. It does throw me... Read More

It’s been a really shitty couple of days with these legs. They just don’t want to work. They’re so heavy. And shaky. All at the same time. I’m trying to... Read More