I know. I’m so not being a good blogger right now. I’ve been trying to find time, energy, verve maybe? It’s been kind of a challenging post infusion week, I cannot lie. Hell. It’s really only been a couple of damn days.

Infusion day brought with it yet another allergic reaction to Ocrevus. They had to stop my drip and give me benedryl twice turning infusion day into an over 8 hour joy ride. I lie. It was not at all joyful. THe benedryl made me feel all hopped up instead of sleepy, like it usually does, so I didn’t sleep more than a wink the entire time I was being infused. I also slept like crap that night when I got home.

There was a mostly new crop of fellow Infusees in the room this time that I am dying to write about but that brings me to my next challenge.

My left hand is suddenly numb. Completely out of the blue, I can’t feel my left hand, especially my left pinkie finger, which has made typing on anything but my phone a real challenge. Writing on my phone works in a pinch but it’s not generally led to my most insightful, prolific work. So I’ve been avoiding it. Hell I’ve been avoiding it because I’ve been mainly unconscious and hoping to feel human again when next I open my eyes but the numb hand isn’t helping matters.

I promise a better, more entertaining write up soon. Until then, I’m doing the usual post-infusion things like trying not to panic, getting lots and lots of rest, eating properly (eff you liquid diet!) and enjoying gray days in my pajamas whilst on various conference calls.

Tomorrow will be better. If tomorrow is not better, the day after should be? I’m trying to cultivate a positive outlook. It’s the only thing keeping me from posting a blog entry that isn’t merely the “eff” word over and over and over again for pages upon pages without end. It’s been suggested to me that I might get more readers if I wasn’t so…colorful with my use of language, so I’m trying to resist that urge too. Not really. That would be dumb.

If nothing else I’m getting really good at resisting urges. Upside detected! Wonder twin powers activate! Shape of…positivity. Form of…mental patient.

Anyway. I’m hanging in there. My numb hand is dying to write more but thumb typing is starting to irritate me so I’m gonna cut this one a bit short.

Thanks for reaching out and checking in on me. It’s good to know that I couldn’t disappear without a trace with nary a soul noticing. You guys really are awesome that way. And every other way.

Until I am no longer numb and/or sleeping 27 hours a day, stay well, friends. I’ll be back. You won’t be rid of me so easily.

Namaste? 😬